I want a pet bird!

Particularly this one! This is Frank! Such a cute bird! It had personality and it didnt event fly away when it was on its owner's hand outside of his house! ARGH too cute! It keeps nibbling on my hair clip, earring or even just my hair. Look at it on the bf's head XD I WANT! *hint to bf if you're reading this*

 I am really loving my polaroid camera. I used up 20 films just as easily. So I order 100 films from ebay for $72. I'm gonna have a box full of polaroid cameras!!! XD

Big Ape was awesome. I didn't take much pictures because I was already tipsy by the time we got to the club. Was trying so hard to maintain a straight look without one eye open bigger than the other rofl. Had crazy shots at Skip's mates place. I didn't post their pics just incase they're not happy bout it and I havent told them I have a blog :p hahaha. The make up was a success too :D I'd normally wear some crazy bright coloured lens but I didn't feel like scaring anyone that night so I used a normal brownish coloured one. The good thing bout this make is at the end of the night it was still perfect. When I say perfect is because of all the head banging to the dubstep and the sweat and tears from puking my guts out outside the club before I re-entered it. Didn't want to get kicked out :x

 Closer look of the make up. Sigh so nice if only I could use this everyday hahaha. Michelle Phan is the bomb la.

Man, I even bought a hot waxing pot thingy so I don't have to keep going to the salon. Cleanliness purposes I swear hhahahaah and..other stuff.. for the looks...you know.. heh. I get to save $70 every month too! Still waiting for it to arrive. You know whats funny? The brand is called gigi. Geddit? Vagigi? Vagina? hahahahaahaahahahhahaahhaa. 

Haven't heard back from Perth Convention Centre yet, because they asked me to apply online. All the effort to dress up professionally and hand in my application form and resume for nothing -_-. Oh well, I just submitted it yesterday. Hopefully I get a call then. Change is good. Still trying to accept it. I absolutely hate change especially if its way too quick. Have to admit, being with the bf I've been through so much change, and life is actually moving way too fast now but its ok! I'm adapting! :D 

Haven't received any rude comments from subway customers lol. But I sorta talked back to one today. He was being a smartass. I asked what salads he wants and he said "all from the big containers, and carrot." I said "sorry?" not cuz I didn't understand but because he was soft! Fuckin shorty zzzz. Then he repeated himself by naming out all the veges he wanted. So I said, "I know what mean if you just repeated yourself. I just couldn't hear you the first time." argh. Some customers really just talks to the glass. I have to fuckin read their lips. wth. I remember I blogged bout this in my wordpress before. The all kinds of customers lol. It was funny. I don't really remember them now cuz I'm so numbed from all kinds. Just bang bang bang your sub is done get out of here. With a smile for them ofcourse rofl. 

Speaking of Subway, I went to the one in KL once. It was hillarious. The moment I walked in the fella working there yelled out "WELCOME" hahahaha. Reminds me of them japanese restaurants when they yell out welcome in jap. Anyways, for some reason their breads is hell soft, one bite and everything fell apart. I wonder why O.o 

Aaaannyways. I wont keep you for too long with my rants. Thanks for reading! 

Big Ape

More bargains. I can't help it. I am in that splurging mode again. I have been keeping it in for a year and I think a year is the max before I go nuts hahaha. I think thats fine! One year of working hard, allocating funds necessary stuff like bills and rent and then save the rest (which fail cause I always end up overspending on the bills or something new to pay comes up zzzz) But anyhow! I am pretty satisfied for now. I don't think I'll be splurging anymore (Unless I see another $2 bargain woot XD) 

So here...$8 for 2. Basically its a buy one get one free.. so I bought 2 and got 2 free. As you can see, the third nail polish there is metallic silver. Remember how I mentioned I absolutely dislike/hate metallic or glitter nail polishes? Yea.. I am constantly trying out to find the one that suits me :D I have yet to try on all the nail polishes I've bought because of work.. it'll just wear out faster because I'm constantly having to wash stuff lol, but its soooo good to see them stack up. Abit too much. 

I also went Go- Karting! With the bf and brother! It was hell fun! The last time I went was sometime this time last year. And if it wasn't for the bf, I wouldn't have gone for Go Karting just because I have no people to go with. Most of them has either gone back to hometown or have new group of friends which is fine ofcourse. Everyone has to lead their own life. As long I know, its not the end of the friendship, I am fine by it! hehehehe

 I'm number 7 there lololol crappy as. I didnt take the records for the next few rounds. This was the first one, where I was still a lil "play safe" there haha.

Did another impulse buying too. Polaroid camera. Gawd, it was $93 bucks man! How can I not buy it?? Its my one day of work pay rofl! Cannot. Help. It. I always thought polaroid cams are like...$300? Rofl. I'm gonna order more films from ebay hehehehehehehe

My ebay splurge has arrived too! I bought them so I can do a look from a youtube Guru Michelle Phan for tonights Big Ape event! :D I have a few other products already but these 3 are the ones I needed (the main ones rofl) and see how it turns out tonight! Very excited! Its a clubbing event, but the music genre is just totally different to the usual clubs with R&B and what not. Its all about.. DUBSTEP!!!! Its a one time event, and hell I am not going to miss this! Going with the bf and his friends! Gah super excited!!!!

I mentioned again and again its hard to find metallic polishes that I like right? Well here it is! My hunt has ended!!! This is one fucking awesome product I just might buy all the colours, but these aren't cheap man.. its like $16 a bottle T_T but its ok, its definitely worth it!! Will be using the silver one to match my make up tonight :D

Materialistic side aside, I'm good :p incase you're wondering. lololol. Still waiting on PCEC. I really hope I get that job. I am done with my current job. Its not to say I'll always be bored of my jobs, but its because this has nothing to do with what I'm interested in. It was a part time when I was uni and I stayed til now. First of all, my boss is good. I mean, at times she can a lil pain but what boss isn't? She's understanding, caring and she appreciates us. But time flew and that sort of went out the window a lil, so most of us are lacking motivation to continue, and we start to look elsewhere. I hope she realises this soon tho! All in all, its a pleasure working with her. Speaking of which, got a meeting later with her and other colleagues at 2.30. I wonder what is it about. I hope not more shifts because I am sure to die from exhaustion. When I don't have motivation or interest to work (I do it because I have to or else I am jobless. Lol. Shallow I know.) I get exhausted really quick :s. Sigh sigh!

But other than that, I'm surviving. haha.

The 5 cent comment

Just when I was feeling all jolly from work. It was busy, it was challenging, time flew like nothing. I liked it. But towards the end, a customer made a comment and that just ruined my whole day.

It wasn't fun being reminded of my situation. I tried my best brushing this feeling off, continued to strive and try harder. But an outsider said this to me and struck a nerve. I was flabbergast. Dumbfounded. I had no come back, no response, nothing. I was stuck. And stuck was what I always feel.

I am not someone who don't have dreams and goals. I am not someone who tried to make changes in life and can't get the result I want or need. When I want it I fucking go get it. And thats the problem with me. I expect so much of myself and the result, I ended up getting disappointed. What should I do? Brush it off again? No, because when finally I am reminded of it, it hits me again. And it happens over and over again I don't fucking know how to get rid of it :s.

I am a foreigner in this country. I am finding ways to stay here, without the means of the boyfriend's help or whatever he is in this country. And I've finally accepted the fact that if I can't stay, I can't stay. Australia isn't heaven. Why am I putting my whole life's core here? Maybe because I wanted to stay so I can have a life here with the bf? Nvm that.

But what about where I am now? I feel I have no goals and I feel like I am going nowhere. And I am perfectly NOT fine with that. When I thought I could get out of it, with a blink of an eye, I am back.

Applying for jobs, I am. Secretly. Doesn't look like I'm trying, but I am fucking trying. And I'm applying for one that I WANT and not just because. Why another situation? Sure, everywhere would be the same. Same unfair boss, same asshole behaviour from colleagues, same everything. But atleast one thing is for sure, I like what I do and that is more than enough for me. I used to like what I do, when I was a small fry in Uni, being in the norm like every uni student. But now? Now I feel complacent at where I am. I feel redundant to my future and family. I can't fucking get out of it and I dunno why?????

I am constantly reminded of this every damn fucking day. And every damn fucking day I brush it off and move on. Plaster a smile on my face and say there is still hope. Until this....

"Your five cents change sir, have a nice day! :DDDDDDD"

"Its fine, keep it. You need it more than I do."

Talk about ouch.

Splurgingggggggg

So I have recently been splurging more than usual because I reckon I need a serious wardrobe make over. I'm not usually the kind who buys new clothes and stuff unless my current ones are not wearable anymore. I never bothered with fashion.. but I think its time for a change. Time to abandon the kiddy clothes. So I had helped from the bf. He has been a real
big help.

I told him I was going to chuck almost half of what I own away, and I'd like him to pick the ones that should be chucked away. Took every single piece of my clothing and modeled for him lol! I don't usually model to anyone, not even myself, so any posture and what not, I am extremely noob at it. He helped me with that as well. The way I should stand, the way I should walk. He basically want people to turn their heads to me and say that's a good looking gal, not slutty but has class.

I have my own reasons for not being like the mentioned above. Whenever I am in a relationship, I like to stay out of the radar. So the way I walk, stand and pose, is one as though saying "Don't look at me, there is no point." lol. But he wants me to be noticed. So I dono. First time a bf has so much trust in me that I can do whatever. I guess that's what its like not being caged. I have to freedom to leave, but obviously I won't! My relationship now is too good to be true, I'm not going to throw it away. I don't need to try. I can just be myself again ^^.

Anyway! The whole modelling took about two hours, and by then we were both exhausted. And we only chucked 2 piece of clothing away. wtf. He says its how I wear them, and how I would behave, and where I'd wear these clothing. Time and place kind of thing. I don't have a bestfriend here with me to help me as I prefer to keep one usually hahaha and shes all the way in Brutown. Ofcourse I do have friends here lol.. but we're all busy with our lives, and just meet up once in awhile to catch up, as though we never had long breaks apart. Love them girls to bits.

Look at how messy it is after 2 hours lolol!

Went shopping yesterday. Just to add on a few classy clothes and some handbags the day before. I've only owned like.. 2? LOL. One is chapalang brand rofl. Another was a birthday gift from the bf's sister :D Now I'm hooked to Collette. Pretty good brand. Its not as expensive, the designs are not over the top and the colours are quite classy. I might be one of them girls getting hooked on shopping lol! I guess its ok? @@".

Today the bf, the brother and I have plans to fix the business' truck. Some clutch problem there. We needed some stuff, so off we went to Riverton forum to pick them up, same time getting

lunch. Sushi xD. It wasnt too bad, not the top grade but still good. Passed by some shops and saw some $2 nail polishes. MUST GET LOL! I have given away ALL my nail polishes before I moved to this place last October. I thought I was leaving Perth for good but I didn't but anyway old news lol.

The colour is so niceee. I tested all colours, except two, forgot which ones, on my brother's nails. HAHAHAHAH. xD No one can take him seriously after that especially when trying to unscrew the bolts and nuts from the truck LOLOL. But yea.. its pastel like colours. Not so glossy. I absolutely hate glitters and metallic ones (unless they're really exceptional, haven't found any yet). Oh, also a lipstick for $4.95. I like it. Man.. I'm so cheap lololol.

That aside, I'm getting really good at manual driving now XD. I've been on the road twice now. Other times with the bf, Stephanie or driving instructor was just around my suburb. Man I have to say, it was scary, but after awhile I got the hang of it. If I panic, which only happened once when I was going up a hill and my car was backing up by itself, I freaked rofl. When I looked at the rearview mirror, goddamn the person behind me was so close. This is the thing about these fuckers in Australia, they bully the learners like fuck. Tailgating you, cut you, give you dirty looks and etc. And just cause I'm driving a small echo doesn't mean I should be bullied!! GRRR. Challenge fucking accepted! Nowonder all the other small cars are driving like Malaysians hahahahaha. One day when I get my riceburner, I'll tailgate them idiots. I'll purposely root for the learners out there and mess with the idiots who are messing with the learners. Grrrr.

Currently, I can't carry any passengers, as I promised the bf I wont endanger anyone's life, unless the person wants to teach me. So..fine. The only passengers I carry around when I'm practicing around my driveway is...

Lolololol! And I agreed not to carry passengers during the first 6 months of my Ps. T_T psh.

Alot of people asked me why I never taken my license long ago.. well my excuse/reason is its cheaper to get it in Malaysia so I waited for the opportunity to get it there.. .but.. I never did. And now that I rarely go back Asia more than a month.. I can't do it there. So yeah. The cost of it here is the same as Malaysia except in Ringgit. 1000 T_T sniff.

Anyways.. time to go next door to shower. My gas got cut. No hot water zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Hello Hello!

Hello Again!

Yes.. another new blog. Lol. I'm sorry. Its just that my previous blogspot needed to be a lil private since I had haters.. and then I moved to wordpress and that got abit too depressing..(maybe I'll blog there when I'm feeling down hahahaha) so now I'm hoping I can keep this one happy, alive and longer. So bare with me for starting over.

When I was starting up this blog.. I was cracking my head for what link I should use. My previous two blogs already used up manzy165 initials.. so now I'm stuck. At that time when I was creating this blogs... my long time uni mate Stephanie was here doing her assignments for her Masters. Was helping her out and she needed the internet connection. So anyway, she helped me brainstorm of a name/link for this blog. And we decided to use the initials of my family. Family as in the bf, myself and the two puppies. lololol. We tried m.a.s.h.. but sounded stupid.. and yeah several others. Then she went "hams!" and I don't know if I got corny and lame from all the thinking... I said I liked it. So yea.. 4 little hams. Habibi, Amoi, Manzy and Skip. Lololol. But please don't dwell on it and lets move on heh...

So whats happening. My life is pretty much the same except when I last blog, I am still an undergraduate student. So yeah, I've graduated.. since a year ago. I am still jobless, as in still stuck to the part time I had since 2009. Subway. Lol. I guess I am too afraid to leave my comfort zone while I am job hunting for one that is related to my studies.

But yeah! I am about to go to Perth Convention Centre (PCEC) to hand in my resume and application form! Hopefully I get the job. I applied for food and beverage, so atleast there I am starting from the bottom. Once I am able to leave Subway (after the uni exams as my boss needs me still) then I might just be full time at PCEC then hopefully climb up the ladder to management. Itll take time but thats my plan anyway.

As for my Visa. I have already gotten my Temporary Visa since July this year. I remember ranting in my wordpress blog bout me applying for it lol. Now I've got it! But I'm actually unhappy I've got it. Before, I had alot of time when they decide my application. Once they are done deciding only then my visa is decided. So now that it is decided... I've got 1.5 yrs. I have no other visa options to apply for after this one so I'm pretty much in a dead end unless someone sponsors me with managerial or higher role. I know its impossible without even trying because I have zero negative nil experience in the hospitality industry. Sad sad sad. Skip obviously don't want me to go.. and its too soon before he decides to leave Australia and be my tail in Asia. Lolz. So we decided we are going to apply for De Facto. Like a couple visa. But not married kind.

Reason being is because we dont want people to think if we get married its just for my visa. We want it to have one meaning and thats love. I know we shouldn't bother bout what other people think.. but come on.. something like this.. Marriage... don't want a single fake gossip flying around. Not preggers. Not for my visa. Nothing else but love. So yeah! I think de facto sounds about right until I get my PR from there, and then we build.. yes build. we want to build. From scratch. Brick by brick, THEN we'll get married. I still annoy Skip for an engagement ring anyway hahaha just to pull his leg. (We all know there is a lil truth there. I wana be engaged!!!! XD) Young naive mind I have. Sorreee.

I gotta run. Til then... thanks for visiting! :D