Shopaholic

Apparently that's my label at work now. Because I splurged quite a few times. Swarovski is evil really. I buy heels because I say its for work. I buy skirt and blouses cause I say its for work. At the end of the day I just like to purchase something. I never really had this itch before. Actually maybe I did but most of the stuff bought was from ebay lol.

Seriously though, Swarovski is evil. When its quiet or when there is time to kill at work, I stare at the display cabinets, just to see which one I like, or falling in love with, and then commit to buy after awhile. When I first started, I eyed a key chain for a very long time. I don't know what was so fascinating about it. It was a bunny. Grey in colour, crystals around it, has a fluffy tail and one eye. I imagined it hanging on me with my card and keys. And guess what, I really did that. When we wear Swarovski products, we are promoting it as well. At least then, those really exaggerated looking jewelleries are worn by real model instead of the blocks it is displayed on. But yea... I splurged alot. And I have this really weird fetish for rings. I mean I know I won't come to a point where I'd wear rings on every finger, but atleast to suit the mood and clothing for the day or something. My fingers are really small or thin? to the point the smallest size (50), is not small enough lol! My colleague Ashley gave me an idea where I can use a few rings together, which then makes it a little tighter. Ofcourse when she says that, she don't mean those bulky rings. It turned out really pretty.

More to come. Can't help it really. Oh well. Anything for vanity hahaha.

Other than that.. today was pretty spontaneous. Woke up, bugged Skip to get KFC for lunch, which took quite alot of effort. He's reluctant to eat KFC because it makes him sleepy. Basically a K.O food for him XD  Anyone else get that? I get that with mac and cheese hahaha. After successfully persuading him, we (Greg too) hopped in the car happily to tapao KFC, and then decided to pick the puppies up from home and head to the park, 2 mins away (by car lol). It was fun because we been trying to get Habibi to swim. She's not a very good swimmer, since shes more of a land dog. Runs like a roadrunner. On the other hand, Amoi is a swimmer. I reckon its her fats lololol. She seems fat, but shes only 10kg, just like Habibi. Amoi is taller (fat body skinny legs XD) where as Habibi is toned. She used to be hell skinny before we got Amoi. I think its the competition for food. Such beasts -_-.

So yea, Habibi jumped in the water on her own today! It was very surprising! I didn't manage to snap any pics of it :( I was pretty much wet and didn't want to risk my phone dropping in the water. Did I mention how I lost my phone? Rofl.

Usually, Habibi hops in the water. She stands on her back legs, waiting for Amoi to come back to shore when after retrieving the whatever we threw into the water (most of the time are sticks lol). When Amoi is within reach of Habibi, Habibi snatches the stick off her, and they both carry the stick back to shore, drops it behind Skip or me, and then starts barking at us to throw it back into the water. Seriously damn cute. So to teach Habibi to swim, we had to carry her further away from shore, she would automatically kick with her front legs, but her back legs stay still, so we had to lift her bum up abit, and she start to kick normally, then finally swims properly. Did it a few times and shes all sweet. Now its giving her more time to do it on her own, like today when she jump into the water on her own.

The weather was so nice today. The water wasn't freezing, the sun wasn't burning and it wasn't crazy windy like always. Except the waves was a little too strong but that's okay. In the end it was a really good day. Here's some pics of them I took earlier in the week XD

Its 2 am. Isn't it suppose to be end of the world? hahahaha. Has anyone seen this? I got this off Burt's instagram. lolololol. Deep down inside I do hope it really isn't the end of the world. -_-

That aside, Christmas is coming! It'll be the second Christmas with Skip. More to come! :D Anyone doing anything for Christmas? I sure wish I could spend it with my parents and Nigel though :(

Spot Amoi under the table XD Blacknesssss hahahah.

P.S: Updated previous blog. Finally found Habibi's first pic with her toy :D

The Habibi

I don't think I've ever told the story of how Habibi came into our (Skip and I....even Greg) lives. It was quite funny because, we all only just moved in at our new place, and then a month later we got her. It was way too quick. The house wasn't furnished, the kitchen was messy from the previous tenant since she left quite a few stuff for us.

We were pretty much a mess and unsettled when Skip suddenly wants FISHES. He wanted to put them in the lil man made pond infront of our house.

Thats Baileys, sticking to us after the move, since Abby haven't move into the house infront of us. So anyway, we went to Petcity on Highroad. He was picking out fishes, and usual me, I like to have my little walkabout around the store, looking at all the kinds of animals. Snake, lizards, fishes, hermit crabs, bunnies, guinea pigs, birds, kittens and puppies. The puppy/kitten stalls was my last visit because it was wayyyyy back in the store (also after picking out my one fish which looked like it has bubbles as eyes XD). When I got there, the kittens was where my attention went first. I was remembering DumDum when I watched them play in their litter box, when I heard a squeal next to the kitten stall. And there was Habibi, rough play with a lil Shih Tzu. Both of them got along so well. When I stood infront of their stall, Habibi saw me and straight away, smashed against the window to get to me. She couldn't get her attention away from me even if thr Shih Tzu was nibbling on its hind legs. Goddamn it was so cute.I didn't take any picture then because, well.. I just didn't.

I don't know how to describe Habibi back then. Shes a pug cross jack russell. She had pug scheme colour, with its signature curly tail, the extra folded skin around her face and her fat rounded body. My god, it was the cutest, ugliest thing I ever seen. LOL. But one thing that won me over other than her trying to get to me through the glass, was her eyes. It was so kind. So child like, so...brown and warm. I wanted her. Skip came to me not long later and fell in love with her too. Unfortunately, we were a day too early to buy her. She was still under watch as she was only 11 weeks old, and still needed surveillance in terms of her eating and what not (she also had fleas :S)

We gave no flying fuck about it. The next day,11th November, 2011(11.11.11) after my shift at Subway (ended around 2.30pm THANK GOD or else the pet shop would have closed by 5pm) and bought her. So. Fucking. Cute. We bought the necessary stuff like food and toys. Brought her home, and she just fit in so well. She ran around the house, in and out (while Skip was trying to get the fishes into the pond). I still remember the toy we bought her, it was a blue bunny, cotton stuff head, but the body was twisted rope, and then the cotton stuffed legs. She would not let go of it, and carried it around with her. And that is how we got Habibi. From fishes to dog.

SO DAMN CUTE!

When it was her first night with us, we didn't prepare any bedding for her (didn't buy doggy bed DONT KNOW WHY!) so we made her shelter with one of our moving boxes, and the bedding used was one of Skip's old paintball jacket or something. She would try to get on the bed, but too short (and fat XD) and whimpered to come up. I was trying to be really tough and not let her sleep with us (scared she needs to pee pee) so Skip had to be the tougher one and commanded her to go to bed. Guess what happened? She actually listened, but reluctantly haha. She shuffled (can hear her nails click clacking on the wooden floor) into her box, made some funny noise (as if moving house, moving the box), but she was actually trying to close the flaps of (like doors), and then loudly dropped herself on the bedding, and heaved a huge sigh. wtf lol! It actually sounds EXACTLY like me when I've been told off hahahahahaha. Very cute.

I played with her everyday, buying her more and more toys. I think she loves me more than Skip because Skip had to discipline her, hence being hard on her. So I was her comfort. Ofcourse I couldn't play with her every second of the day. I still had to tidy the house, do the laundry, cook blablabla. She would follow me everywhere I go. And when she follows, she carries her toys with her. Picture below shows her following me when I went to see Skip when he was playing his Ps3. Lookit that. She knows I was just saying 'hi' to Skip in between my chores, so she didn't drop her toy and chewed at it, just waited for me to walk away again.

She also learnt to do this crawling walk thingy we call 'Slugbug' (don't know why, don't bother asking). It was SO cute, it melted us instantly.

Just look at this and tell me it is NOT cute???

A month later, I had to return to Brunei for 3 weeks holiday. It was bought like, in August. Skip and I weren't official, didn't think I'd be in this new life back then. This was the first time, I did not want to return to Brunei. My heart gets heavier each day my flight gets closer. I even got depressed! I didn't want to leave Skip and Habibi for 3 weeks!! Its not that long really. But it ACTUALLY IS! Even Skip didn't think it was going to be so bad. They both got so depressed lol! It was a little better for me because I had my parents and childhood friends to keep my mind off Perth. Poor Skip and Habibi. We skyped every chance we get (which is alot lol) and each time Habibi hears my voice, she looked so lost. Skip told me, she would rush to the door when there was sound outside the room. She thought I would show up. T_T SO SADDDDD. Then Skip felt so lonely to the point he and Abel (Abby flew to Brunei too lol) bought tickets and visited us in Brunei. I was at the beginning of the 3rd week of my trip when Skip and Abel flew to us. So they spent a week in Brunei. Richard, Skip's brother, took care of Habibi, and then our place had a power cut for some stupid reason. So he took Habibi back to his place and she had military training with Skip's dad (for being too naughty LOL).

Get this, when Skip and Abel traveled to us, they missed their flight. How? They took Air Asia to KL, and from KL, their flight to Brunei is with Royal Brunei Airlines. They didn't know these two flights are actually in different airports. So when they landed in KL, they had few hours to kill before their flight to BN, so Abel wanted to get a hair cut (good impression for Abby's parents XD) then when they return to the airport, they couldn't find the terminal for Royal Brunei Airlines. When they realised they were in the wrong airport (we couldn't keep in contact because they had no roaming and wifi to use, or even time?) they reached the other airport and the terminal was closed. Missed their flight. I was so disappointed. I was all hyped up and then to hear this news. Man, my heart sank. Unreasonable of me, but couldn't help it. Even my mom was preparing a big meal for Skip when I told her the news. She said "no heart to cook now" whilst dropping the knife. LOL. Drama. But anyway! They took the first flight to BN the next morning and we were all jolly again, yay!

So anyway, til this very day, Habibi is CLINGY as hell. She would be all depressed if I'm gone for work. And when I get home, she jumps around like some spastic kid lol. In a way, I am happy that I get so much love from her. Even better now, we have Amoi to join her being spastic when I come home. :D Story you next time about Amoi :D

I've got a nine hour shift tomorrow from 12pm to 9pm (or rather, in a few hours from now). She is gonna be devastated lol! So yeah, I gotta go sleep now. Needa inspire more people with Swarovski kekekeke. Til then, enjoy the pics of lil Habibi! :D

 When we first got her

 Sleeping together on the couch

 Don't know how to rotate pic LOL, but thats the bunny toy she loves

 Habibi aiming for the ears lol!

 Butt facing Skip lol!

 Typical dog enjoying the breeze in the car with the window down

Happy dog is happy! 

:(

Oh my god.. I am doing it again. I am unmotivated to blog. It came to a point where I actually forgotten the link to this blog. LOL.

I apologize. I don't really know how many people actually knows of this blog but I am still sorry, but I should have atleast ONE viewer :p I hope. xD

Anyways.. as always, something to talk about in my life. I have a new job. I have left subway for a good month now. No, I didn't make it to Perth Convention and Exhibition Centre. In a way I am glad I didn't make it. Hospitality is a tiring job to have, its especially a stressing one. The job I applied for that time is like a waitressing job. I've forgotten what the position is called :S but its specially for events. I was hoping if I managed to get that job, I could work my way up to an event manager position. Then I realized  I'm actually a very homily person. I like to be home as much as possible, with the puppies, with the cleaning and what not. Not so much of a career person. Even though I'm not a career person, I also like to go out there and make my own money. Its definitely good for me to get out of the house once in awhile too. Social wise, nowadays I think twice. Nothing to do with money. Just the amount of time spent away from home.

So, I decided to try the world of retail. Even though it isn't in the line of what I studied in uni,  but fucking hell it is different. I don't feel as tired, I am less antsy, and I get to take care of my looks more, like my nails, skin and hair. Before when I was in food and beverage, I didn't give two fucks of my outlook. My nails break easily due to the perspiration of my hands in the gloves, causing my nails to soften and become weak. Which then also causes 'hangnails'. Well, I'm guessing that's the cause. Unless it was dehydration/dryness of cuticle in general lol. I never bothered to moisturize it as well. I was pretty much hands on with everything. My hands are pretty ugly at this rate, but not anymore. I get to look after my nails again (before I started working 3 years back) and able to work still.

Face and hair, always taken care of too. In the world of retail, first impression is very important. Best to not look sloppy. I still cant do much bout the dry ends of my hair and I really don't want to keep trimming it. I wanna grow it really long. Not to the point it reaches my butt, but atleast to where the bra clip area. Still finding products to suit my hair. Currently using a salon brand shampoo and conditioner called Angel Professional. It smells soooo good, even as a smoker I get annoyed if my hair reeks of smoke now. heh. Speaking of smoke, its actually really bad to be a smoker and work in retail. You talk to people almost 90% of your shift, so smelling like smoke, especially your breath is really a big nono.

Anyway, when I say less stressing, it really is less stressing. The shit I have to do is like 5% energy needed compared to my previous work place. Before, I usually go home feeling SO tired, even after a refreshing shower. I couldn't be fucked doing anything. Not even tidying up the house. My uniform reeks of my workplace, especially my hair and skin. Walk past me, you can smell subway. My bag I bring with me to work smells like Subway. My everything basically. Bleagh. Now I don't. I'm properly dressed, smelling good, presented very well and best of all, I don't look tired at all. My face would show it all especially.

Not just that, I get to have conversations with people, not just what they came for. So yes, my interpersonal skills are increasing. Yes, I am there to sell as much as I can, which means convincing is necessary, but I am also there to present the world of the product I am selling. To share with the people its beauty and brilliance. I've learnt several techniques in selling as well.

Before I started work, I did alot of research as well. Not just knowing the products I am selling, but also the techniques of selling. We don't want to be aggressive when we sell. Hence you find better ways to sell without being like that. There is one thing though. Ethics in selling. I really don't want to cheat anyone. When we sell, we always make sure we don't hide anything, but also when doing so, we don't want to advertise the negative of the product. Which then comes down to how honest you are, and how you present it. I was actually quite proud of myself how I handled one situation, eventhough it cost me a sale. I don't know. It just didn't feel right to sell to the person.

Oh, I just realized, after all that rambling, I didn't mention where I am working LOL. Its Swarovski. In case you don't know what Swarovski is (YOU SHOULD!), its a boutique selling jewelleries. Its very close to fine jewelleries like diamonds and all. Its man made crystals. Not those plastic ones you get from cheapo stores and what not. Its ingredients are highly guarded secret, so I myself don't know. But the closest description I can give is that it is the cleanest, purest form of glass. That is what I say to customers when they ask what is it. Alot of people think, when you say crystals, its the ones from our nature. Nono. They're man made. Apparently, it needs water to power the machine to make them crystals. We don't know much of the machine, as there is only ONE picture of it and the discoverer. Everything else other than the discoverer and his family (his kids) knows of it. Its pretty interesting. Swarovski used to make crystals for chandeliers and stuff like that, then at one point, left over pieces of crystal were put together, which looked like a mouse. And there we go, the birth of Swarovski figurines.

I am to becareful with how much I blog/speak about Swarovski as an agreement has been signed. But I am still able to share my experience :D So just incase you are wondering what is this "negative" thing bout the product I mentioned earlier...well its like this. A customer came in looking for an ENGAGEMENT ring. Seriously? An engagement ring? Dude, its man made crystals. You want to give your gal man made crystals? Our care for the product is to not let the crystals come in contact with water, perfumes, lotions and etc. Its fashion jewellery. Engagement rings, well you don't really take them off unless you have to. I don't know how much to speak of this since I am not engaged, but I reckon if I were to wear an engagement ring, I wouldn't take it off, like a wedding ring. So yea, you are not to wear Swarovski jewellery into the shower, or do the dishes with it and what not. Whenever I wear any Swarovski jewelleries like rings and bracelet, I take them off before I do the dishes, or wash my hands after I done my business in the toilet, dry my hands then put them back on. Yes, its a lil hassle, but its not like its a big impact in my life. The same as how we wear killer heels just for the sake of looking good, eventhough at the end of the day/night our feet is begging for a good massage. Same same.

So yea, I told the customer, instead of risking his relationship by presenting his gf with Swarovski ring as an engagement ring, I simply said she will not be able to wear any of the rings into the shower. I don't know if he got any of the hints like "DIAMONDS, IDIOT, DIAMONDS" or what, but he said "thank you for your honesty" and I bid him goodbye. Ofcourse before that I said she can wear our products during the wedding. Its fucking sparkly, trust me, Swarovski jewelleries for your wedding, BIG YES! Its so sparkly and elegant, so brilliant it just makes you even more stunning. Enhancing your already beautiful looks. Even when I wear simple casual clothes with my Swarovski jewelleries, my looks just brighten up. Like 10x.

Years before, an ex gifted me a Swarovski figurine. I didn't appreciate it as much as I had no clue what it was. But a year later I discovered the boutique and I was just stunned by it. Everything is so bright and shiny and sparkly. It felt so calming just looking at them. Sadly, I couldn't afford any. I wasn't working, couldn't afford shit and when I was, I didn't see the need for fine jewellery (thank you food and beverage!). Hence, I looked away from buying any Swarovski items, til now. Bwahahahahaha. So here, I can understand customers who come in and just browse at the jewelleries and figurines. I can totally understand their love for it, but unable to fork out a little bit more to treat themselves to it. Hence we offer layby HAHAHAH. Ok not the point, but still, I understand the 'just browsing' customers.

Just 4 weeks into working there, I've already spent $1200 on it. O_O I KNOW!! I CAN'T HELP IT!! Being surrounded by it, 4 times a week, 6-7 hours each, I JUST WANT IT ALLLLLL.

There was one funny thing that happened when I started my first few shifts there. I greeted a customer who walked into the store. There is a glass cabinet display table with jewelleries displayed near the entrance. When she walked in, she would first be presented with it. I walked towards her/ the glass cabinet display table and greeted her. I know I should give customers space after the initial greeting, but I myself was hypnotized by the beauty and brilliance of the displayed items I stood there day dreaming at it. Then I noticed she looked up at me and seemed a lil scared, like I was staring at her LOL. I felt so embarrassed XD I smiled back weakly and turned around pretend I didn't just scared her as if I wasn't giving her space lol!

But yea, its definitely nice to be in this kind of change from hospitality to retail. I won't say its an easy job, but its definitely less stressing. (What I'm stressed of is my bank account instead! XD) I am loving it so far especially my colleagues and managers. Anyways, gotta sign out now, gotta work in 9 hours. Need my beauty sleep :p See ya!

I want a pet bird!

Particularly this one! This is Frank! Such a cute bird! It had personality and it didnt event fly away when it was on its owner's hand outside of his house! ARGH too cute! It keeps nibbling on my hair clip, earring or even just my hair. Look at it on the bf's head XD I WANT! *hint to bf if you're reading this*

 I am really loving my polaroid camera. I used up 20 films just as easily. So I order 100 films from ebay for $72. I'm gonna have a box full of polaroid cameras!!! XD

Big Ape was awesome. I didn't take much pictures because I was already tipsy by the time we got to the club. Was trying so hard to maintain a straight look without one eye open bigger than the other rofl. Had crazy shots at Skip's mates place. I didn't post their pics just incase they're not happy bout it and I havent told them I have a blog :p hahaha. The make up was a success too :D I'd normally wear some crazy bright coloured lens but I didn't feel like scaring anyone that night so I used a normal brownish coloured one. The good thing bout this make is at the end of the night it was still perfect. When I say perfect is because of all the head banging to the dubstep and the sweat and tears from puking my guts out outside the club before I re-entered it. Didn't want to get kicked out :x

 Closer look of the make up. Sigh so nice if only I could use this everyday hahaha. Michelle Phan is the bomb la.

Man, I even bought a hot waxing pot thingy so I don't have to keep going to the salon. Cleanliness purposes I swear hhahahaah and..other stuff.. for the looks...you know.. heh. I get to save $70 every month too! Still waiting for it to arrive. You know whats funny? The brand is called gigi. Geddit? Vagigi? Vagina? hahahahaahaahahahhahaahhaa. 

Haven't heard back from Perth Convention Centre yet, because they asked me to apply online. All the effort to dress up professionally and hand in my application form and resume for nothing -_-. Oh well, I just submitted it yesterday. Hopefully I get a call then. Change is good. Still trying to accept it. I absolutely hate change especially if its way too quick. Have to admit, being with the bf I've been through so much change, and life is actually moving way too fast now but its ok! I'm adapting! :D 

Haven't received any rude comments from subway customers lol. But I sorta talked back to one today. He was being a smartass. I asked what salads he wants and he said "all from the big containers, and carrot." I said "sorry?" not cuz I didn't understand but because he was soft! Fuckin shorty zzzz. Then he repeated himself by naming out all the veges he wanted. So I said, "I know what mean if you just repeated yourself. I just couldn't hear you the first time." argh. Some customers really just talks to the glass. I have to fuckin read their lips. wth. I remember I blogged bout this in my wordpress before. The all kinds of customers lol. It was funny. I don't really remember them now cuz I'm so numbed from all kinds. Just bang bang bang your sub is done get out of here. With a smile for them ofcourse rofl. 

Speaking of Subway, I went to the one in KL once. It was hillarious. The moment I walked in the fella working there yelled out "WELCOME" hahahaha. Reminds me of them japanese restaurants when they yell out welcome in jap. Anyways, for some reason their breads is hell soft, one bite and everything fell apart. I wonder why O.o 

Aaaannyways. I wont keep you for too long with my rants. Thanks for reading! 

Big Ape

More bargains. I can't help it. I am in that splurging mode again. I have been keeping it in for a year and I think a year is the max before I go nuts hahaha. I think thats fine! One year of working hard, allocating funds necessary stuff like bills and rent and then save the rest (which fail cause I always end up overspending on the bills or something new to pay comes up zzzz) But anyhow! I am pretty satisfied for now. I don't think I'll be splurging anymore (Unless I see another $2 bargain woot XD) 

So here...$8 for 2. Basically its a buy one get one free.. so I bought 2 and got 2 free. As you can see, the third nail polish there is metallic silver. Remember how I mentioned I absolutely dislike/hate metallic or glitter nail polishes? Yea.. I am constantly trying out to find the one that suits me :D I have yet to try on all the nail polishes I've bought because of work.. it'll just wear out faster because I'm constantly having to wash stuff lol, but its soooo good to see them stack up. Abit too much. 

I also went Go- Karting! With the bf and brother! It was hell fun! The last time I went was sometime this time last year. And if it wasn't for the bf, I wouldn't have gone for Go Karting just because I have no people to go with. Most of them has either gone back to hometown or have new group of friends which is fine ofcourse. Everyone has to lead their own life. As long I know, its not the end of the friendship, I am fine by it! hehehehe

 I'm number 7 there lololol crappy as. I didnt take the records for the next few rounds. This was the first one, where I was still a lil "play safe" there haha.

Did another impulse buying too. Polaroid camera. Gawd, it was $93 bucks man! How can I not buy it?? Its my one day of work pay rofl! Cannot. Help. It. I always thought polaroid cams are like...$300? Rofl. I'm gonna order more films from ebay hehehehehehehe

My ebay splurge has arrived too! I bought them so I can do a look from a youtube Guru Michelle Phan for tonights Big Ape event! :D I have a few other products already but these 3 are the ones I needed (the main ones rofl) and see how it turns out tonight! Very excited! Its a clubbing event, but the music genre is just totally different to the usual clubs with R&B and what not. Its all about.. DUBSTEP!!!! Its a one time event, and hell I am not going to miss this! Going with the bf and his friends! Gah super excited!!!!

I mentioned again and again its hard to find metallic polishes that I like right? Well here it is! My hunt has ended!!! This is one fucking awesome product I just might buy all the colours, but these aren't cheap man.. its like $16 a bottle T_T but its ok, its definitely worth it!! Will be using the silver one to match my make up tonight :D

Materialistic side aside, I'm good :p incase you're wondering. lololol. Still waiting on PCEC. I really hope I get that job. I am done with my current job. Its not to say I'll always be bored of my jobs, but its because this has nothing to do with what I'm interested in. It was a part time when I was uni and I stayed til now. First of all, my boss is good. I mean, at times she can a lil pain but what boss isn't? She's understanding, caring and she appreciates us. But time flew and that sort of went out the window a lil, so most of us are lacking motivation to continue, and we start to look elsewhere. I hope she realises this soon tho! All in all, its a pleasure working with her. Speaking of which, got a meeting later with her and other colleagues at 2.30. I wonder what is it about. I hope not more shifts because I am sure to die from exhaustion. When I don't have motivation or interest to work (I do it because I have to or else I am jobless. Lol. Shallow I know.) I get exhausted really quick :s. Sigh sigh!

But other than that, I'm surviving. haha.

The 5 cent comment

Just when I was feeling all jolly from work. It was busy, it was challenging, time flew like nothing. I liked it. But towards the end, a customer made a comment and that just ruined my whole day.

It wasn't fun being reminded of my situation. I tried my best brushing this feeling off, continued to strive and try harder. But an outsider said this to me and struck a nerve. I was flabbergast. Dumbfounded. I had no come back, no response, nothing. I was stuck. And stuck was what I always feel.

I am not someone who don't have dreams and goals. I am not someone who tried to make changes in life and can't get the result I want or need. When I want it I fucking go get it. And thats the problem with me. I expect so much of myself and the result, I ended up getting disappointed. What should I do? Brush it off again? No, because when finally I am reminded of it, it hits me again. And it happens over and over again I don't fucking know how to get rid of it :s.

I am a foreigner in this country. I am finding ways to stay here, without the means of the boyfriend's help or whatever he is in this country. And I've finally accepted the fact that if I can't stay, I can't stay. Australia isn't heaven. Why am I putting my whole life's core here? Maybe because I wanted to stay so I can have a life here with the bf? Nvm that.

But what about where I am now? I feel I have no goals and I feel like I am going nowhere. And I am perfectly NOT fine with that. When I thought I could get out of it, with a blink of an eye, I am back.

Applying for jobs, I am. Secretly. Doesn't look like I'm trying, but I am fucking trying. And I'm applying for one that I WANT and not just because. Why another situation? Sure, everywhere would be the same. Same unfair boss, same asshole behaviour from colleagues, same everything. But atleast one thing is for sure, I like what I do and that is more than enough for me. I used to like what I do, when I was a small fry in Uni, being in the norm like every uni student. But now? Now I feel complacent at where I am. I feel redundant to my future and family. I can't fucking get out of it and I dunno why?????

I am constantly reminded of this every damn fucking day. And every damn fucking day I brush it off and move on. Plaster a smile on my face and say there is still hope. Until this....

"Your five cents change sir, have a nice day! :DDDDDDD"

"Its fine, keep it. You need it more than I do."

Talk about ouch.

Splurgingggggggg

So I have recently been splurging more than usual because I reckon I need a serious wardrobe make over. I'm not usually the kind who buys new clothes and stuff unless my current ones are not wearable anymore. I never bothered with fashion.. but I think its time for a change. Time to abandon the kiddy clothes. So I had helped from the bf. He has been a real
big help.

I told him I was going to chuck almost half of what I own away, and I'd like him to pick the ones that should be chucked away. Took every single piece of my clothing and modeled for him lol! I don't usually model to anyone, not even myself, so any posture and what not, I am extremely noob at it. He helped me with that as well. The way I should stand, the way I should walk. He basically want people to turn their heads to me and say that's a good looking gal, not slutty but has class.

I have my own reasons for not being like the mentioned above. Whenever I am in a relationship, I like to stay out of the radar. So the way I walk, stand and pose, is one as though saying "Don't look at me, there is no point." lol. But he wants me to be noticed. So I dono. First time a bf has so much trust in me that I can do whatever. I guess that's what its like not being caged. I have to freedom to leave, but obviously I won't! My relationship now is too good to be true, I'm not going to throw it away. I don't need to try. I can just be myself again ^^.

Anyway! The whole modelling took about two hours, and by then we were both exhausted. And we only chucked 2 piece of clothing away. wtf. He says its how I wear them, and how I would behave, and where I'd wear these clothing. Time and place kind of thing. I don't have a bestfriend here with me to help me as I prefer to keep one usually hahaha and shes all the way in Brutown. Ofcourse I do have friends here lol.. but we're all busy with our lives, and just meet up once in awhile to catch up, as though we never had long breaks apart. Love them girls to bits.

Look at how messy it is after 2 hours lolol!

Went shopping yesterday. Just to add on a few classy clothes and some handbags the day before. I've only owned like.. 2? LOL. One is chapalang brand rofl. Another was a birthday gift from the bf's sister :D Now I'm hooked to Collette. Pretty good brand. Its not as expensive, the designs are not over the top and the colours are quite classy. I might be one of them girls getting hooked on shopping lol! I guess its ok? @@".

Today the bf, the brother and I have plans to fix the business' truck. Some clutch problem there. We needed some stuff, so off we went to Riverton forum to pick them up, same time getting

lunch. Sushi xD. It wasnt too bad, not the top grade but still good. Passed by some shops and saw some $2 nail polishes. MUST GET LOL! I have given away ALL my nail polishes before I moved to this place last October. I thought I was leaving Perth for good but I didn't but anyway old news lol.

The colour is so niceee. I tested all colours, except two, forgot which ones, on my brother's nails. HAHAHAHAH. xD No one can take him seriously after that especially when trying to unscrew the bolts and nuts from the truck LOLOL. But yea.. its pastel like colours. Not so glossy. I absolutely hate glitters and metallic ones (unless they're really exceptional, haven't found any yet). Oh, also a lipstick for $4.95. I like it. Man.. I'm so cheap lololol.

That aside, I'm getting really good at manual driving now XD. I've been on the road twice now. Other times with the bf, Stephanie or driving instructor was just around my suburb. Man I have to say, it was scary, but after awhile I got the hang of it. If I panic, which only happened once when I was going up a hill and my car was backing up by itself, I freaked rofl. When I looked at the rearview mirror, goddamn the person behind me was so close. This is the thing about these fuckers in Australia, they bully the learners like fuck. Tailgating you, cut you, give you dirty looks and etc. And just cause I'm driving a small echo doesn't mean I should be bullied!! GRRR. Challenge fucking accepted! Nowonder all the other small cars are driving like Malaysians hahahahaha. One day when I get my riceburner, I'll tailgate them idiots. I'll purposely root for the learners out there and mess with the idiots who are messing with the learners. Grrrr.

Currently, I can't carry any passengers, as I promised the bf I wont endanger anyone's life, unless the person wants to teach me. So..fine. The only passengers I carry around when I'm practicing around my driveway is...

Lolololol! And I agreed not to carry passengers during the first 6 months of my Ps. T_T psh.

Alot of people asked me why I never taken my license long ago.. well my excuse/reason is its cheaper to get it in Malaysia so I waited for the opportunity to get it there.. .but.. I never did. And now that I rarely go back Asia more than a month.. I can't do it there. So yeah. The cost of it here is the same as Malaysia except in Ringgit. 1000 T_T sniff.

Anyways.. time to go next door to shower. My gas got cut. No hot water zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Hello Hello!

Hello Again!

Yes.. another new blog. Lol. I'm sorry. Its just that my previous blogspot needed to be a lil private since I had haters.. and then I moved to wordpress and that got abit too depressing..(maybe I'll blog there when I'm feeling down hahahaha) so now I'm hoping I can keep this one happy, alive and longer. So bare with me for starting over.

When I was starting up this blog.. I was cracking my head for what link I should use. My previous two blogs already used up manzy165 initials.. so now I'm stuck. At that time when I was creating this blogs... my long time uni mate Stephanie was here doing her assignments for her Masters. Was helping her out and she needed the internet connection. So anyway, she helped me brainstorm of a name/link for this blog. And we decided to use the initials of my family. Family as in the bf, myself and the two puppies. lololol. We tried m.a.s.h.. but sounded stupid.. and yeah several others. Then she went "hams!" and I don't know if I got corny and lame from all the thinking... I said I liked it. So yea.. 4 little hams. Habibi, Amoi, Manzy and Skip. Lololol. But please don't dwell on it and lets move on heh...

So whats happening. My life is pretty much the same except when I last blog, I am still an undergraduate student. So yeah, I've graduated.. since a year ago. I am still jobless, as in still stuck to the part time I had since 2009. Subway. Lol. I guess I am too afraid to leave my comfort zone while I am job hunting for one that is related to my studies.

But yeah! I am about to go to Perth Convention Centre (PCEC) to hand in my resume and application form! Hopefully I get the job. I applied for food and beverage, so atleast there I am starting from the bottom. Once I am able to leave Subway (after the uni exams as my boss needs me still) then I might just be full time at PCEC then hopefully climb up the ladder to management. Itll take time but thats my plan anyway.

As for my Visa. I have already gotten my Temporary Visa since July this year. I remember ranting in my wordpress blog bout me applying for it lol. Now I've got it! But I'm actually unhappy I've got it. Before, I had alot of time when they decide my application. Once they are done deciding only then my visa is decided. So now that it is decided... I've got 1.5 yrs. I have no other visa options to apply for after this one so I'm pretty much in a dead end unless someone sponsors me with managerial or higher role. I know its impossible without even trying because I have zero negative nil experience in the hospitality industry. Sad sad sad. Skip obviously don't want me to go.. and its too soon before he decides to leave Australia and be my tail in Asia. Lolz. So we decided we are going to apply for De Facto. Like a couple visa. But not married kind.

Reason being is because we dont want people to think if we get married its just for my visa. We want it to have one meaning and thats love. I know we shouldn't bother bout what other people think.. but come on.. something like this.. Marriage... don't want a single fake gossip flying around. Not preggers. Not for my visa. Nothing else but love. So yeah! I think de facto sounds about right until I get my PR from there, and then we build.. yes build. we want to build. From scratch. Brick by brick, THEN we'll get married. I still annoy Skip for an engagement ring anyway hahaha just to pull his leg. (We all know there is a lil truth there. I wana be engaged!!!! XD) Young naive mind I have. Sorreee.

I gotta run. Til then... thanks for visiting! :D